Saturday, December 25, 2010

The Golden RUle

If u can't stand me, please don't read this, it makes me self-conscious...  ;)

We co-exist and interact with God, other people, and the devil. God is on our team, hehe, well actually, we should be on His...... other people often un-consciously are playing on the devil's team, working against us, and to harm us, though usually not purposely, and the devil, he is just a plain old enemy.

I kind of hate it how people have such a huge impact on our lives, and there is pretty much NOTHING we can do to control other people and how they affect our lives, now I know they say we have control and we can't blame others for anything, well, i understand the concept, but the fact is, other people can raise a lot of havoc in your life and they can also bring a lot of happiness to your life.

People can hurt you so badly! And there is nothin you can do to avoid it. Yet people are not our enemy. We don't wrestle against flesh and blood. But our enemy DOES use people. One important question to ask is , is he using me? Sadly, I have probably been used at some time in my life to discourage or hurt someone else. What a shame to even think of it, but we all fall into stupidity. And usually it is through our own pride, vanity and pettiness. Being so concerned with being right, or winning an argument, etc.

SOme people who think they know me but dont really understand me as well as the may see me on the surface might not understand this, but I HATE arguments....I hate contention. I am soooooo tired of it. I hate drama. I hate the ulcers and grey hairs and shortened life-span that it can cause. I love peace. I love when people are nice to each other. There are some things worth fighting for, there are some things that must be fought over---but oh how I wish that was not the case. I dont want to be attacked, I don't want to have to defend myself, I don't want to attack. I just wanna live my life happily.

IF only we'd do what Jesus said and just treat others as we'd like to be treated. IF you wouldn't like someone talking about you, don't talk about them. If you don't like being disrespected, don't disrespect. IF we would all treat each other as we would like to be treated, it would utterly change this world! Talk about world peace! ALL we need to do is follow the "Golden RUle" but we refuse, even among us Christians. And it breaks my heart to think about it.

Oh how I wish for men to be gentleman and for women to be ladies! Oh how I respect and chersh a human being who is courteous and polite! How I loved to be around my Grandmother when I was young, because she was always kind to me and made me feel like someone important to her! I love to be with people who have a pleasant demeanor and don't cause undue stress.

I have known very few people who show that simple, sincere Christian love that the New Testament speaks of. ANd often, I am NOT one of those people myself. What a shame that is.

I'm sick of being angry in this world, and I'm sick of being hurt. Please take it away from me, Lord.

But besides people hurting me, I mean, I can let it roll off my back, I can leave it to God, btu what am I supposed to do when people victimize those that I love? How can I defend them?

One thing I have noticed lately, is how nobody seems to treat a woman with respect and dignity anymore. The whole concept of treating her as the weaker vessel, means to HONOUR her, not to put her down or disrespect her. I am so disheartened as I see how people treat women, and even girls. A girl is still a young woman. People are so presumptuous and ignorant in some of the ways in which they talk to females nowadays. I think it is better to be on the safe side and be too polite than to speak so familiarly with someone that you're disrespectful.

I look at the way we are supposed to act, and I see how I fall short, and our whole culture falls short. And I wish we could go back to the good old days sometimes, lol when we were polite, even if it was a put-on! lol

i cannot change the behavior of our culture, nor ca i change the petty behavior of anyone else, i can only change my own, no mattr how others discourage and hurt me. the one good thing I can say, is the LORD is not that way at any time. He is not petty, manipulative, rude or cruel, arbitrary or gossipy. Thank God for God! Help me to be more like Him!

Hope you all have had a good day with friends and family and walking with Christ.

Monday, December 6, 2010


 I've seen some old men, who are happy, even in their feeble state. I am thinking of two very elderly men right now who are preachers. They aren't rich. They aren't especially healthy, They aren't trouble free or over-priveleged, and yet they ARE happy, joyful, truimphant, hopefull. They are not defeated. They are not afraid to die.

If they can be that way, who is to say that we can't? We're so surrounded by pessimism, and a spirit of defeat, and a defeatist attittude. If there are only a few people who are the exception to the rule, I would like to be a part of that club. I would like to be like Willard Thomas, still quoting poems and Scriptures in my late 70's, still excited and happy and thankful in the Lord.

All we seem to think about is moslims, the stockmarket, the war, splitting churches, politics, and on and on. I don't like what's going on either my friends. But God is not take by surprise! God is not dead. God is not distressed. He is not helpless, He is not impotent. He is the SAME! yesterday, today and forever. We are all sooooo defeated that we are afraid to praise and be joyful. Ya know what, i may FAIL tomorrow! I may mess up AGAIN! I may be a big dissapointment. I may go thru hard times. I may work a low-paying job, I may crash my car into a ditch, but GOD is still God, my soul has still got a home in Heaven. Jesus is still going to return! The Bible is still true. My sins are still forgiven. My soul is still safe. My life is still blessed!

I know it is hard, especially to break free of that initial rut that you've gotten yourself into. I am predisposed to be depressed, I'm irish, we have some crazy, deep emotion, BuT ya know what? We have GOT to stop wallowing in troubles and depression and just shout the victory. You say, what victory? Well, the victory may not yet be here for some of us, but shout because it is on its way!

When jehoshaphat was king of Jerusalem, a long long time ago----the enemy came after the israelites and they headed down there with their armies, and instad of fighting, god told em to go out and praise Him and they went out and sang Praise ye The Lord for His mercy Endureth forever and ever! ANd GOD smote the Philistines! They shouted the victory before it came! You might be in a bad way right now, but God is good, do you know Him? If you do, just thank Him that you're saved, It's a good place to start, and maybe, like th children of israel, as you sout the victory, God will come and smite the enemy! He can!

So we seem to have come on hard times. Those kind of times call for some hardcore strength and faithfulness. When babylon defeated Israel, it was one of israel's darkest times, yet it was in this very time that some of the greatest men of God saw God work miraculously and powerfully in their lives---Shadrach, Meshac, and Abednego, and Daniel! They wanted to throw them in the fire, but those boys would't back down, they were ready to die and GOD delivered them! They wanted to throw Daniel to ravenous lions and God sent an angel to protect him! God put those heathens to shame when they tried killing Daniel and his friends.

Daniel could have wallowed in self-pity about having to live in that terrible heathen land, but he didn't.

Elijah called down fire from Heaven in a time when israel was ruled by evil evil leaders! And even after that-Elijah got so discouraged that he wanted to die, BUT he didn't die, as a matter a fact, he was caught up to heaven in a chariot of fire!

Have faith my friends! get that fire back in your heart. Purpose in your heart! If you fall like I do, just get up again!

A Tender Heart

I have heard hymns that I've heard over and over and over growing up to the point that they don't mean much to me. And then, I have heard someone like Lester Roloff sing those same hymns, and been deeply, deeply moved. It wasn't because Brother Roloff was the most talented singer in the earth, No, it was because that simple singing was so meaningful to him, his heart was so warm and touched with the things he was singing about. I have listened to some interesting, old, old sermons from men like John R. Rice, or Roloff, or the old Bob Jones.....or Dr. R. G. Lee, now I know some people think of these men as Hell-fire and brimstone preachers. But I have to tell you, I do not detect that anger, and brimstone in their preaching that some characterize them with. On the contrary, the effectiveness of their preaching, for me, comes from their intense sincerity, their warm compassion and the profound simplicity of the message. I don't mean that they didn't preach all the hellfire n brimtone stuff, but the way they said it, was with concern for the hearers and sincere faith, they believed it, they werent trying to convince themselves, they were very comfortable and secure in what they believed, they said it so simply. Nowadays, it seems like were often looking for some new, progressive revelation, whereas these guys could preach a message on the lyrics to Amaing Grace, they didnt need a new message, or a gimick, they were completely secure and excited by the same message Jesus preached. They still wanted to tell people about the kind of thing that happened to John Newton when he wrote "Amazing Grace," or what happened to the thief on the cross when he trusted in Christ, etc.

I have looked so long and so far for answers and help, and what a dummy I've been, because the answers have been right where I left them all along.

To have that fire burning warmly in my heart, it is worth it. I have often forfeited my own inner peace, trading it for something else, chasing after something else, being unsatisfied, I thought I had to go look for something since everyone else was.

To all my friends going thru any hard time, can I share something? When you see everyone else heading in a direction, it is so easy to feel left out, I know. I have sometimes second-guessed myself and thought, hey, if everyone else says this is what I should be doing maybe I should listen? But don't fall for that like I sometimes do. Just because other people do not understand how to be content or happy in the good things of God, doesn't mean those same things they think aren't important, can't be satisfying for you. God has good things for you, that will feed your soul and heart and mind. You can be content. Satisfied. In a world of constant commercials, and tempting and goading, it is so easy to be filled with covetousness and discontent and greed and lust, to the point where we are discontent and we dont even realize it. Ya know, sometimes I am so dumb. I dont realize what I do to myself. I got hurt today in my car because I went off in a ditch, and with my head and neck hurting, I left the radio off. And i listen to the radio a lot. Anyways, I realized after a few hours, that half of the peace of mind I have been missing is because I spend so much time listening to stuff that vexes me.

I only am sharing this because hopefully other friends who are plagued and bothered by the same things That I am can get some help from this. Don't let the media and the discouragement and the commercial world teal your joy from you. There is NOTHING stopping you from hitting the off button. You are in control. I know it sounds so simpl that some right it off as unimportant but when I turn off the discouraging news and commercials and vain talking radio shows etc, and read the Psalms and proverbs and Gospels, I find a little fire burning in my heart, that has not been there in a long, long time. God bless you my friends!

Sunday, December 5, 2010


We are living in complex times. Always changing. You never know what can happen from day to day. Things are volatile in the world. Everything can be fine tomorrow, or North Korea could attack South Korea, or the markets could crash, or it could go up a few points. Nobody really knows. Culturally, we are going through many changes. It would take too long to get into a lot of them, but there are defntly a lot of changes.

In these times, I feel that since we know we could gain or lose everything at any given time, we really shouldn't take the good things and good people in our lives for granted.

A lot of people are always up in some controversy. A lot of the controversies sound so serious and important, the way people carry on about them. But ya know what, sometimes I realize that while there are indeed some things worth fighting for-there are LOTS of things that aren't.

I cherish the truth. I love to know things and study and learn, and I like to learn more and more about God as I read my Bible and study etc. But, I think I finally understand a bit of what it means to understand the spirit of something, instead of just the letter. You can be "Right." and be so miserable that you're wrong.

Example, you could have a perfect, clean, neat, household, run with efficiency, beautiful enough for a magazine, etc. But in order to keep it that way, you'd have to be a perfectionist, you'd have to be miserable, mean, picky, inhospitable, etc. OR you could have a reasonably clean, comfortable, lived in home, where you and your family are happy, relaxed, loving and enjoying yourselves. Is it wrong to have a clean, neat perfect house? I suppose not. But is it worth it no matter what the means? Nope. What does this have to do with what i was talking about? Well, it has to do with realizing that in these volatile times, when none of us know how long we will be able to enjoy all the blessings we have. We shouldn't talk about each other, argue, second-guess, nit-pick, get in a controversy, drama, etc. Basically, Im saying, it's not worth it.

If something is truly truly important enough to fight over, you know I will! But if there's one thing I'm tired of, it's the fight. There are so many things I just don't care about anymore. I'd rather be happy than be right about some argument.

Meh, I don't know if I'm making any sense. I'm not saying I'm gonna be the biggest push-over in the world now! lol Everyone who knows me knows that's not me. But I am not interested in fighting with anyone over stupid things. I'm not interested in talking bad about anyone, I really don't like back-stabbing, and if I ever thought I was a part of that, I'd feel so ashamed. I mean, I am willing to bet I have said something at some point about someone that I shouldn't have. And I'm ashamed of that. I realy dont want to be the one judging and hurting other people. We're really supposed to love EVERYONE! So, as far as my fellow human beings, I want nothing but good for everyone! I want to have the attitude of being happy for others when I see them happy. and that attitude of course, fends off that horrible sin of Envy, or Resentment.

If I see someone doing something in their life that I am convinced has them headed for trouble, instead of being that person that say "Ahhhhhh, I see what they're doing! That's not a good idea!" and talking about it with other people for entertainment and to make myself feel superior. I would rather just hope and wish for the best and hope that I am wrong, and that things go well for them. I used to be one of those ppl that thought u should always be honest with a friend about how you feel and think about their personal decisions, reason being, I thought you had to be in order to be a true friend. But ya know what I've realized, whether you agree or not, you don't have to change your opinion or pretend to agree, but if they are truly a friend or loved one---you will support them! Even if they're wrong. Because trying to punish someone for not listening to you, is only going to hurt them. Whatever my friends or family do with their lives, however I feel about it, I am going to support them to the end. And I am going to cheer them along and hope and pray for the best for them! And if they fall down, I'm not gonna say "Told you so" I'm going to be sad with them. Weep with them that weep and laugh with those that laugh!

Goodwill toward all men, is something we hear around Christmas time, and ya know, we really should have good will for each other. We should hope for each other's success and happiness. We are all so competetive and individual driven, but maybe we've sort of lost sight of brotherly love, goodwill toward all men, etc. Perhaps this makes no sense to anyone but me right now, and that's fine. But kindness is much more profound than we realize. and the hippies n such have made us think community, and the brotherhood of man is just a platitude. But we really are al part of the human family, created in the image of God, we're all in the same boat. And we ought to care about each other. Maybe if ya chew on these thoughts a lil while, they'll help you to see a bit more why Jesus said what He said about praying for your enemies, etc. I know I have been thinking.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Thing I Know & Things I Do Not Know

Life has taken me places I didn't expect to go and made me someone I didn't expect to be. I've realized recently, that I'm a lot more "Sensitive" than I previously realized. it really does get to me and hurts me inside when someone says something bad about me, especialy if it is behind my back or if I thought the person was a friend...sadly, that is just the way life is, and I have to learn to deal with that and not let it get to me so much.

I have also realized that there are many things that I just do not know. I may have somewhat of an opinion formed, or an instinct, but I do not have all the answers to everything. That does not make me a compromiser, or a liberal, lol It just is what it is. It can be fun to be dogmatic all the time, but I just don't have that kind of confidence anymore. interestingly, some people see my own doubts, or struggles or growing as some kind of double-standard or hypocrisy, which is ridiculous. I am not the final authority, I am not Jesus.

Sometimes people have this preconceived idea that I am judging them in their personal lives, I don't know why, they just assume. Well, let me tell you, I don't. I TRY to do what I think is best and right for ME, i don't sit back and judge your personal decisions, if you think I am, its in your head, believe me, I'm not. When someone takes a "Liberty" in their own lives, I do not judge them. I do not know your heart nor do I claim to. I think sometimes people take their shakey consciences, and project that guilty feeling onto someone else. Please don't do that to me. If something doesn't sit well with you, you need to deal with that on your own, I am NO ONE else's moral compass. I never could be nor would I want to be.

One of the biggest reasons we all feel so bogged down and stressed half the time, is because we're always worrying about what someone else is doing. I will not do that anymore. Where you go and who you go with and what you do is entirely up to you, and I hope the best for you. If someone sincerely asked me what my opinion was on something in their lives, I might give MY opinion, simply because they asked, but that's as far as it goes.

I'm not sure if I'm expressing this right or not. What I'm trying to say is that we all bear our own burdens. nobody can do it for us. and all we can do for each other is be kind and encouraging, support each other, pray for each other. it's like the whole Christmas thing " good will toward all men" That's all I want to have is good will. I'm tired of anything else.

I think it might be a time for mother's wisdom, If you dont have anything nice to say, dont say anything at all-lol

I always liked Laura Bush because of that. she said she would try to find something nice to say about EVERYONE! Not a bad idea. and Laura Bush is certainly one of the classiest, kindest woman I've ever seen. I greatly admire that lady. Peace.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

The Serenity PRayer

I try to express myself with honesty and sincerity. Some ppl think that I take that step out into freedom of speech because I don't care what anyone thinks and I'm just an argumentative son of a gun, well, that really isn't true. WHile I am not uncomfortable at all with people disagreeing with me, I am quite uncomfortable and even a tad sensitive with personal attacks on me. Those of you who think I'm cold and callussed, believe me, u dont know me as well as you think. It cuts me deep when people trash talk me. Maybe I need to grow a little tougher than I am. I'm just honest and in your face because that's the way I was raised to understand the meaning of integrity. If I was less honest, I would feel like I was doing something wrong. I'm not as aggressive and nasty as some ppl think. ANywho.

I question things. I struggle. I'm very well-grounded in some of the things I believe, secure. But not in all things. I'm searching for some truths. But the difference that I sometimes have, is that even when I'm searching-I do so out loud so everyone can hear it lol I express myself and write about it and share the whole process. hhehe sometimes that gets me into trouble. aw well.

I still have my eyes wide opened to social troubles, to the oncoming third world war that the korea situation will soon contribute to....but, I'm also so unbelievable tired of analyzing it all and caring. I mean, eventually, it will MAKE us all care, when it effects us all, but there is ABSOLUTELY nothing that I can do about it.

There is something to be said about living the simple life. Eating, drinking, working and giving thanks. Everything else is just out of my control I guess. I can only do what I can do. Some of you may think I've turned into a wuss and am now giving up and becoming a hippy ;) lol But right now at this point in my life, one of the most important things that I've been trying to applyu to myself is a little prayer that I always used to think was superficial and silly called the Serenity Prayer. lol Maybe life has kicked my rear, maybe I'm half the man I used to be but, but maybe, just maybe, when I learn this, I'll be a better, happier person. WHo knows.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Sort of an Apology

To all of my regular blog followers who don't know the details about my last blog, I felt compelled to post that to deal with some personal trouble I've been having and I needed to express myself in that way, and it needed to be where many ppl could see it. So I apologize if it was irritating, I know my blogs are usually about issues more than my personal life. I know that is not usually the accepted method but I felt I needed to do that. I will try to get back to regular blogs soon, although it has been difficult as I have been working a lot of overtime.

I saw that North Korea attacked SOuth Korea again today. Sadly, little will probably be done about that in the near future. I also see that as we speak the stockmarket is plummeting, so it certainly makes for an interesting day. There is unrest in the world and in many of our personal lives, lol but nonetheless, we do indeed have a lot to be thankful for, I'm glad it is thanksgiving week! Yeah! I love Thanksgiving. Peace.

My Defense. Before You Talk Smack About Me, Read This. Thanks.

"Everyone deserves to be happy" I don't know if that statement is totally true, but I'll be honest, I agree with it. I don't begrudge anyone their happiness. I want you all to be happy. I want everyone to have a fair shake and be able to live their life. You will not see me going around undermining your dreams or relationships or deamonizing your personality and putting you down for being what you are.

Have I not put enough time and misery in yet to 'deserve' a little happiness? I love how everyone has their OPINION and they HAVe to put their two cents in about things, but the one thing they never consider with their mouths and their high opinion of their own opinion, is that there are other PEOPLE you are effecting so why not just shut up and leave it alone, live and let live n all of that...

I haven't done anything to deserve the lonely life some of you would wish upon me. I would like to see some of you walk in my shoes. Some of the hurts I've suffered in the past several years, did I do something wrong to deserve them? No. I didn't do anything wrong. It was just life. SO why do some of you want to punish me and just think I don't have the right to be happy without it being your way and with your permission? WHo died and made you God...? Are we supposed to file an application with some people before were allowed to have feelings and be human and enjoy life?

I get this sense that some people feel that they should have a regular life, family, marriage, work, vacations, privacy, but someone like me, no, I'm not allowed to be normal...I don't deserve that, I should be a eunuch....married to the Church....and I should be perfect, and I should never drink or smoke, or chew or hang with those who do, and I should never listen to music, and I should, well, basically I should just work real hard, pray a lot and keep the CHruch clean? lol I have no idea why it isn't okay for me to be a human being? And I have no idea why I am a bad person and its' "Weird" to some people that my girlfriend and I are happy together and we get along. We rarely argue, were happy, were respectful of each other, it couldnt possibly be a better relationship, but some ppl have to say how its "Weird" ? Well, GET OVER IT! YOu really think we should throw away our happiness because you think its a little awkward for you. It is NOT awkward for us, it is not awkward for Theresa. It has not been awkward for almost two years, and at this point I would really appreciate it if everyone could just drop it!

And to clear up a couple other things, # 1. I am NOT unemployed nor have I been unemployed in a looong time! There was a little while when subbing at the school didn't give me as many hours as I would have liked, but I am NOT unemployed. And yes, I am FAT. I am so sorry if that makes me sub-human. I am not the only fat person in the flippin universe, geez! And if u dont find me attractive, thats just peachy, you dont have to date me people.

Is it really so much to ask, just for a little common courtesy, that people just support their friends and family, be kind and dont talk smack behind their backs? I wouldn't do that to you! I guarantee you that! So why do it to me? I may not be the best guy in the world, you might hate my personality or think im a fat, ugly, uncharming dork. But I have never done anything to any of you, I have never said an ill word, been unkind, takin' advantage of anyone, mooched off of anyone, I've never even borrowed money, lol, just throwing that in there because ppl seem to like to think that I am unemployed, well, have I ever borrowed money from ANYONE? Nope. Not NOBODY, cuz thats not how I prefer to do things, so tell me, how is this unemployed lazy bum surviving without borrowing money? Oh yeah. I work! I've ALways worked, from the time I was 14 years old! ANd I have earned two degrees, even if they are worthless in this economy, don't say I'm not productive please.

I'm not asking for a metal. I'm not asking you to think I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread. I'm asking you to treat me with some common courtesy and stop holding me to standards that don't seem to apply to anyone else but me! It just isn't fair. ANd I am not going to spend the rest of my life trying to earn everyone else's approval.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

At A Loss

I haven't been blogging much lately. I feel like I am running on spiritual "E" and I need to stop at a filling station.

There is a lot going on, including my niece having serious heart surgery this Thursday morning.

I have also been feeling very dissilusioned with....lots of things. I have been in an endless battle with falsity and half-truths. I've been struggling and seeking for truth, truth, truth, as long as I can remember. But I am feeling tired and fatigued in this battle. From personal pursuits to national policy and all of that, I just don't know about some things sometimes.

I've pretty much always been personally invested in "Politics" but it is now such a circus show that I don't even know if I care anymore. I mean, I care, but I don't see any place to stand or any leader to support....i know I believe in righteousness and holiness and fer of God in our nation. But that's about all I know now, and I don't see much hope in any of our leaders.

But more importantly, the Church. Not my local Church, I mean like all of us, all the churches, the Christians...what is going on? I don't know. It seems to be as much of a circus as the rest of the Nation. I hear preachers ranting about the old paths, and fundamentalism, etc. But somehow, I have this feeling that there is something missing and somehow many are not on that same old path they claim they're talking about. Half of these egotistical, ranting, strutting speakers wouldn't even be fit to tie the shoe  of Lester Roloff or D.L. Moody or Oliver B. Green.

There seems to be two camps right now, one is the camp of rebellious, bad-mouthing, liberal-minded, wackados who think that all the Old Fashioned Christians are nothing more than cult-members.

The other side, rants and raves about the old paths, fundamentalism, standards and bad attitudes, but somehow, I sense that they are also off track and seriously lacking something that I know I grew up with that is no longer so easy to find. Was it the way we were dressed that made the chruch what it used to be? Somehow I don't think so, because the dres hasn't changed, but something has certainly changed over the years, something has been lost and replaced by a bad attitude, arrogance and inner-loathing for anyone who talks or walks a little different than us....

So are these my two choices? its either ur with us or against us, eh?

I'll admit it right now, I don't have the answers. I wish I did. But I am honest enough to say now, that I am sensing that something is radically wrong with us right now. I am searching for what is real, and what is going to help me and keep me right. And no shallow answers are going to help me, getting my hair cut right and ironing my clothes and wearing a cool tie, is not gona help my soul, and singing bubble-gum songs to Jesus, following the bouncing ball and reading paperback novels about sissy Church-people meeting spirits in a cabin isn't gonna do it either. A lot of people are on some kind of crusade right now. And they think theyre setting everything straight. Well, although i agree there is some kind of problem among us, I do not think that most of the big mouths are part of the solution, if anything theyre part of the problem. SO I won't add my voice to any crusade right now, because sadly, I don't have a platform right now. All I know is that I am vexed and unhappy and disturbed about where we are today in Christianity...and I need a genuine spiritual move to help me.

Perhaps all of us, in every camp, need to stop and be quiet for a while and ask ourselves where it is that we have divurged from the true path that we were supposed to be on, the old paths, not just the old paths that we like to yell about and think were cool, but the actual old paths that the scriptures were talking about, not just some man-made preferences but some Spirit convictions.

I really am vexed, I'm not trying to make a statement and prove anything. I'm just expressing myself in my dsicouragement so if anyone has some real help or sincere thoughts on this matter, I'd love to hear ur thoughts.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

The Man's Castle is a doghouse

Some ppl think that I just don't get it cuz I'm not a married man, well. That just aint the case. I do get it. I've let somebody push me around before, and I learned a thing or two. if someone doesn't think YOU are worth making some sacrifices for, then why are THEY worth sacrificing for?

SOOOOOOOOooooOOOoooOO many relationships are all about the power dynamic. In some households, the "man of the house" always seems to get his way, and the lady of the house is under-appreciated and pushed around, but in others (and much more common in modern households) the man is nothing more than a brainless servant who needs some guidance from his emotionally 'mature,' level-headed, high-maintenance,multi-tasking, wife. Get mad ladies! Go for it! I'm not like the men yall been with, cuz I'm not afraid of you! lol I could care less. and what are men afraid of? the SilenT treatement! bha silence is golden! 

People just need to understand this whole 'he's sleeping on the couch cuz he's in the doghouse' generation is flat out, cold, plain old WRong! Who said that bed is yours? Hmm? Who more than likely paid for it? hmmm? You wanna call me a chovenist? Big deal! Go ahead, I been called worse. I am just AMAZED at how many "MEN" have been reduced to nothing more than glorified servants! And you women wanna know why you are so miserable? I am here to enlighten you---a man who has been castrated by Your man-eating ways can't make you feel like a woman. A lot of women, when they hear me talk like this, theyre like " oh no he dint" lol Well, what are you gonna do about it? Hmm? And some ppl think, eh, he just doesn't get it because he isn't a married man, he hasn't been nudered yet. Well, say what you want, but I am dating a woman who respects me and doesn't treat me like an idiot.

I don't do disclaimers well, but let me tell you, and those of you who really know me know this is the case, I am a gentleman. I treat women with respect, and I think my lady is a Princess and the msot wodnerful, beautiful girl in the world-BUT I don't say that because I HAVE to I say that ONLY because I WANT to, and here is the thing, you know why I feel that way, cuz she treats ME with respect. Angry women today want some RESPECT but they aren't willing to GIVE Any Respect!

Doesn't anyone ever wonder why feminazis wanna be treated like men when it suites them but they wanna be treated like ladies when it benefits them too!?!? If you wanna be treated like a LADY, ACT like a lady! We've come A LOOOOONG way from when being a stay-at-home mother meant the clothes all smelled fresh and dinner tasted good, to meaning that the lady of the house didn't miss any of the Day's Soap Operas! How about them apples? You won't hear those kind of criticisms on television! 

You wanna get mad? Go for it. But my lovely grandmother would be ASHAMED of the way most ladies act and I wish she was alive cuz I guarantee she could straighten out some of this business a heck of a lot better than I can.

NOW, back to the 'power dynamic'

It isn't ALWAYS the women taking advantage. In some households, it is the men who act like morons. They like to lord around and be the man of the house, yet they don't take care of the responsibilities of the man of the house, they just like the perks of feeling like a big shot. But this is what cracks me up! The households where the man is the moron, complain about the "man-eaters" the "feminazis" and the "Domineering women" when they ought to be worrying about the chovenist hypocrite. Meanwhile, the household where the woman rules the house like a queen and her husband is her doormatt, complains about 'so n so' and how they dont treat their wife right. I don't understand how so many people dont see that it goes both ways. Neither the man, nor the woman, is supposed to be an endentured slave!

The problem in all of these cases whether man to woman, or woman to man, is the same---it is the power dynamic. ONE person in the relationship is being selfish, dominating, and manipulative. A relationship is supposed to be a TWO-WAY street of LOVE, that means giving and sacrificing--for Both, not just the other person to you! And if it is only ONE-sided, it AINT a relationship! It's exploitation.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

It's getting close to November. SO perhaps some good things will happen since we've all been looking forward to the elections. But who knows, in the grand scheme of things, I am looking for a bigger change than just some elections, but perhaps it will be a step in the right direction.

I started a new job, and today is my day off so I thought I would write up a blog today, but my mind has been wandering. I'm tired of politics, that's for sure. If nothing else all those stinking commercials are enough to drive someone mad!

You know when it's fun to be an American? AT a 4th of July Barbecue. Or on a nice evening, sitting on the front porch of a victorian style home, sipping ice tea. I believe my brother and I are going to sit on his porch this evening and enjoy the view, tornado or not.

Still today, the predominant thought on my mind, the day's theme, is "A Reckoning"

I see so much injustice and lies. I'll tell you the kind of thing I long for through a couple of my favorite stories. How about-Walk Tall-where a veteran returns home to his quiet American hometown to find it over-run by casino gambling an organized crime so he runs for sheriff-and cleans house! Or King Solomon judging between the people. Or Clint Eastwood, kicking the tails of a bunch of asian gang-members. That's also why I like westerns, i like when the lawman comes to town and routes out all the criminals. I like a movie with posses and hangings! I know, so sacreligious going from Bible to movies, but a lot of those westerns are based on the true history. law and order was brought to this country by men with some "True Grit" ;)

We live in the days of comic book heroes. Superman, he had such great ideals, and good intentions-but he also had super strength, in essence, most of the time, he had nothing to lose. We make up heroes, heroes with all the power, invincible,to save us. I have to say, I think better heroes are those who sacrificed, and did human things. Douglas MacArthur, and the soldiers who fought under him, American revolutionaries, who were hung by the british empire, the Waldense martyrs. You see, we are afraid of the word martyre these days because the muslims have "high-jacked" the word. But a muslim 'martyre' is not a martyre. He/she is just a suicide-murderer, and there is a difference.

I'm almost 27 now, and for one reason or another, I have been realizing more and more ever since I turned 20, that I am not very proud of myself. I admire some men. I have some heroes. And the reason is, because those men have something I don't have. I've done almost nothing, they've done everything.

Realizing that I am not even half the man that my Grandfather, Carl Buchler was, I hope that at some point, I will get the chance to "Redeem" myself. I am a member of the low-expectation generation. 

At this point, I hope to at least be able to honor the virtues of better men than me, so that I'm not a shame to myself. At the very least, I can be known as someone who had some respect. I may not be one of the mighty men, but at least I can be someone wise enough to recognize greatness when I see it. I may not be a leader, but hopefully I can find someone to follow.

I aspire to be a lot more than I am. And somewhere along the way, I've lost something, dropped something, or realized I never had something that I thought I God's grace, I'll eventualy be what He designed me to be. I want my soul back.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Wake Up America, Faschism and The Quaran Are On Their Way!

I get lectured by condescending know-it-alls about how un-enlightened I am for picking on the poor wittle muslims...yet, I have just been talking to yet ANOTHER friend who is being victimized by this horrible religion. When a friend of mine is being discriminated, misstreated, and intimidated by this backwards, vile religion-I am not about to even consider letting up!

In European Cities, full of history, Christian history, european history, the white natives who live there are being misstreated and marginalized and outnumbered by Muhammedans! You can call me the bigot if you want to BUT how would you like to be in the minority, and to be sneered at, yelled at, and singled out because you're white and you're not waring a head-scarf!?!? Most can't imagine that reality, well, neither could the people of London a few decades ago, but their Muslim-appeasing has left their native citizens as a marginalized minority!

It NEVER fails to amaze me how an American, sitting in luxury and freedom can tell someone who is victimized by the Muslims to just 'be more open-minded'  Liberals and their hypcrisy never cease to amaze me! Their freedoms would be the FIRST to go!

It's the hypocrisy of the so called "Feminists" that amazes me the most! They claim to be looking out for women, yet they're silent when millions of their 'Sisters' are facing rape, genital mutilation, child-marriages and forced arranged marriages, beatings, and lack of rights. 

SO let me get this straight, you're a terrible chovenist if you are pro-life or if your wife stays at home with the kids, but you're just a member of the diverse human family if you BEAT your wife, circumsize your young girls, make them cover their faces in public, and force young girls to marry older men!? Liberals and their muslim appeasing idealogy---it is sooooo unbelievably twisted, immoral and repugnant! 

ALL of us need to start speaking up and speaking out! Don't be intimidted now! Because in the years to come, if we don't stop this trash, we won't even have the freedom to "Offend" the Muhammedans! Just ask Britain and France where it got them! Don't fal for the PC crap or the Pseudo-spiritual "Love everybody" nonsense. Calling out the truth when we see what is wrong is not "Un-loving" its' tough love if anything!

I blaspheme Muhammed! Muhammed was a false prophet, a child rapist, a terrorist, a liar, a tribal warlord! And he is in Hell fire as we speak. Muhammed is no prophet and I have NO repsect for him or his book! Burn the Quaran? I'd use it for toilet paper, how do u like them apples PC police?

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

and the things of this earth will grow strangely dim

I have been very distracted by pain in my throat and head, often excruciating pain, and now I am even more distracted byt he fact that I can't sing in CHurch for a while, which is really very important to me, and I have been the song leader for many years so it's just going to be weird not singing tonight. I have one appintment on Monday and hopefully that will help me get back to singing, we'll see what he says. I am really hoping there isnt damage to my voicebox or anything, but even moreso, I'm hoping its nothing too serious. I know, I'm sorry I am indulging my hypocondria in a blog that is usually all about issues....well, All my issues today are of a personal nature. I would like to get back to my conversation about American Manhood, but I don't think that will be for today.

Today, I am feeling especially....human, weak, out of control, because we aren't really in control, we can only control...our reaction to all of the out of control elements around us, or even within us when it comes to health probs.

I am tired. I can't really help myself but say something when I see nonsense, filth and injustice, but I am getting to the point where so many times I don't waste my breath. I am getting to the point where I really wonder if there is a convenient way for me to tell when it is worth while to speak truth and when it is okay to leave things be. You do have to choose your battles. But in this day of age, so many people have chosen to avoid ALL battles alltogether, those of us willing to be called distasteful and be fools for Christ, seem to have to fight EVERY battle! lol Well, I can't. I can't do it. So I have to choose where some helpful words might be helpful and just pray for some. The obstinate,the hateful, resentful and biggotted, I just can't invest in them so much. Maybe I'm wrong. I don't know.

Today, I have been thinking of David Brainerd. He was a man who did everything I've ever been afraid to do and died at about my age. When I think of all that he sacrificed in his young life to reach others for God, I realize that I am not the martyr my selfish mind would like to believe I am. I think I've sacrifices so much. I get tired. I get discouraged. But I am selfish and carnal.

We all want good things. I want good things. But as a Christian, every time I put any good thing before God, that good thing turns to ashes in my hands. People who have never been in the faith, do not and cannot understand this where they are. They do not understand how the things of this world can be so unimportant. They also do not understand that once the insatiable desire for earthly pleasures is put into perspective, it is FREEING and LIBERATIng to the soul.

BUT, sometimes, that inner conflict, that part of me that thinks popularity and status, and money and things are so important sticks up it's ugly head. But here is the thing. It is NEVER satisfied. And so the only way to be satisfied is to be freed from the sick appetite of the flesh. Remember the Scripture-Godliness with contentment is great gain. 

Lord, help me! I am tired and hopeless in seeking contentment from the world, and I am longing and broken in seeking a closer relationship with You!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

The American Male Genocide, Will The Masculine Survive?

I like old westerns, I like Johnny Cash tunes, I like guns and I like Harleys. I like war movies. I like stories about people like William Wallace, or Srgnt. York.

You know why some of these things appeal to me? Because in my daily life-I constantly see "males" with their 'bangs' in their faces, rings in their ears, girl-jeans, soft-voices, shy, apologetic looking countenances, unable to make a decision, indecisive, cerebral, stuffed-shirt, prissy pretty boys! It is few and far between these days that you see a man who even LOOKS like a man moretheless ACTS like a man! 

You turn on the TV(tormenting vulture) ;) and there's these sloppy, fumbling, bumbling idiot men on all the sitcoms, who are constantly out-smarted, out-witted and out-talked by their intelectually superior wives, mothers and mother-in-laws. I get so tired of seeing men constantly portrayed as emotionally immature and unavailable, socially awkward and morally empty. How did we come from the father on Leave it to Beaver, to the fat guy on King of Queens and Raymond on everybody loves raymond? it may be funny, but it's also tragic how much it reflects the way society sees men. 

It doesn't take work-boots, a big harley or a shotgun to make you a man, but good grief, it can't hurt. I mean, I'd rather see that than girl-pants, beads, and text-messages. I'm just saying.

There is a much deeper, more profound problem that needs to be looked at than what can be answered by a good hunting trip or someone teaching you to clean a fish, but at least that's a place we can start ;) haha

But we are living in a time when manhood is looked at as a BAD thing and lots of people make snide remarks about "machoness" You see, it is considered as some kind of a shame to be known as a man's man, but it's completely acceptable to be known as a feminazi, a man-eater, a tom-boy, a feminist, a social-worker hehehe, you know what I'm talking about. Just look at those pushy, loud-mouthed women on the View! (And please don't even start lecturing me on not respecting women, I am a gentleman and I treat a lady like a lady so i don't even wanna hear it). 

But when it is considered a VIRTUE for a man not to be manly, something is fundamentally WRONG! 

BUT the problem is even deeper....were not even quite sure what manhood is all about these days. That's why you get these cheap caricatures of what someone thinks a manly person really is. You know, the big-mouth, know it all who swaggers around everywhere in his insecurity trying to be......."Macho" and always has to talk about trucks and is afraid to tell his kids he loves them! lol This is the over-compensating response to the modern man's emasculation.

The modern man is nudered. And it is SAD. The modern man is emasculated, castrated, afraid and insecure. He has no courage. He doesn't lead. He stands for nothing. 

and in this leadership vacuum, there is no vision, there is no direction, and the people, leaderless, and hopeless, and without direction, will follow ANY false hope that gives some sort of promise or direction (Obama anyone?) 

When there is no George Whitefield, Jonathan Edwards or D. L. Moody---folks will listen to Joel Osteen :) When there is no Ronald Reagan, no Abraham Lincoln, no JFK....people will listen to Barak Huessein Obama and Hillary Clinton. When there is No good plan, people will follow a bad plan. When there is no leader, peope will follow a dictator. 

Why are the standards in the USA today so twisted? Because the original standard has been dropped! Why are the U.N. flags flying? Because the American flags aren't! Why are the fires of Islam burning in the hearts of new converts in the United States? Because the Christian fire has been snuffed out by modernity and political correctness!

The pioneers that built this country out of wilderness were NOT emo, they weren't gothic, they weren't dressed in hip-huggers and they werent vegans. They were MEN! They were strong. they were hard-working, they were independent, they were builders, hunters, fishers, and sometimes warriors. And it wasn't some joke, it wasn't some yuppy looking for his call to the wild, it was a serious undertaking.

I want to talk about some pretty serious things about manhood, that go a lot further than just me picking on sissies in girl pants, but the starting point has to be first to acknowledge that it doesn't make sense to apologize for being male, it doesn't make sense to glorify the feminine all the time, for men to talk soft when they ought to just ENUNCIATE :) it isn't a sin for a MAN to be the head of his household, to make a decision every once in a while without asking permission, to look for a date instead of a mother, to SPEAK up and stop having the women do all of his speaking for him as if were all a bunch of deaf mutes or something! And I could go on ;)

Now I realize that if some tree-hugging, vegeterean, man-eating, insecure, feminazi woman reads this. She won't appreciate it. BUT. This isn't for them. I am going to be writing some more about this subject of manhood in modern America. And I would like to hear some comments and thoughts about the matter (for the sake of productive conversation not to argue or call me a chovenist n al that nonsense) This has been mostly  rant, describing the problem on its surface not its deeper impact on us or the solution, but, I wanna talk about it a little more beyond just making fun of the sad excuse for men that this generation has produced. But, this is actually a really important and meaningful discussion for us.  


Wednesday, October 13, 2010

What Will You Do When The Postmodern Gestapo COmes Looking for You?

I think we are headed in the same direction almost every other generation of Christians have seen. The pressure of the world is closing in on us, and the world system has decided, not to tolerate our values much longer. From Jerusalem to Rome to the snowy mountains of europe where they chased us, Christians have been persecuted. Now, at this time in the USA, some might think I sound a bit meladramatic, I understand, but I am a person who watches trends, and am a student of history. Just like an old guy can feel it in the air when a bad storm is coming, I can feel and see the rising, gathering storm of both antisemitism, and anti-christ.
But, the fact is, the Church has flourished in times past, during persecution. You hear so much talk about tolerance and diversity, and minority, etc. But it is almost never highlighted how Bible-believers have been burned at the stake, fed to the lions, drowned, hung, stoned and so on. The word "Tolerance" is a cloak that the intolerant secularists use to hide their contempt for faith and goodness.

We have had so many freedoms, and at this moment, though they are under serious threat, we still do. And yet we have not scratched the surface of taking advantage of them. We have neglectd them and taken them for granted. And we are close to losing them. Right now, you MORE THAN LIKELY will not be killed for your faith in the USA (several street preachers have recently been shot and it was utterly ignored by mainstream media) but right now, what you will most likely face is only the beginnings of persecution. You will be talked about, bullied, considered distasteful...ostricised, much as I have been for speaking out or for being 'anti-muslim.' If you're very public or outspoken about the truth, you'll be encouraged to tone it down, or to take it somewhere else. Thus the "Tolerant" will tolerate everyone but you! Sadly, many already are too afraid or intimidated to be sneered at or considered distasteful or be embarassed by posting something on facebook about their faith, or by walking down the street with a Bible, well-this is where it all starts, but it wont end here. First they have you scared to publicly be yourself, in a few years you'll be imprisoned for "Hate-speech" and eventually you'll be treated just like the Bible-believers were treated by the Communists in the USSR.

I have already been in college courses where my faith and beliefs could have gotten me an "F" and I had to pretend to be a liberal to pass. That kind of behavior, sadly, has come to be accepted as normal. How did this happen, and where does it stop? Can we stop it? well, if EVERYONE in this country stood up together, fearlessly against it and shut these people up with sheer numbers and said hey, we dont care what the chicks on the view think, this is what we believe and we arent scared of your pseudo-intellectual bull! Then yeah, we could stop it, but most Americans today don't seem to have that kind of conviction. They have shoddy opinions....but no convictions...

So, those of us who believe and do not plan on changing, we must purpose in our hearts NOW, before that day of testing comes, where we stand. There will come a day when it will be a lot worse than people calling you names behind your back.

My Grandfather fought behind enemy lines and killed and captured many Nazis in World War 2, the least I can do is have the character not to deny my faith just because some weak-minded townies and some hollywood celebritards dont like what I believe!

One of my best friends is fighting the terrorists in Afghanistan and risking his life every day, the least I could do is not apologize to the Muslims for being a Christian and not put up with any of their intimidation, anti-semitism or Muhammed exalting. The LEAST I can do is blaspheme Muhammed every once in a while. 

Daniel prayed towards Jerusalem three times a day even though he was going to be thrown to the lions for it, the least I could do is pray for my food, or put my hand on my heart for the Pledge.

You know, if EVERY Christian who looks at this said something on facebook even, to publicly acknowledge their faith, it would let many more people in this Country know that it is still okay to be a person of faith in this Country. We aren't going anywhere. They need to realize this. We have been through every type of persecution throughout our history, and just as the evil men of this world have never been able to eradicate the Jews, they will never be able to eradicate those of us who read and believe in all of the Jewish Scriptures. like it or lump it.


Monday, October 11, 2010

The Advent of Reality Television Was A Sign of the Fall of Western Civilization (I am a doomsday prophet ;) )

I had the sad mosfortune of watching the tv news tonight, somethign I haven't done in quite a while. and my did that break give me some perspective. the USA right now is like watching a bad movie. Goerge Orwell, if only you could see us now. We are headed for destruction like a snowball headed for Hell, and yet were going on and on in pride and self-satisfaction. lovely.

It's all so old and trite that there isn't even a way to say it that will be cogent to the callassed, desensitized, overly-entertained, overly-stimulated Americans. People claim that the brutal murder of human babies is somehow related to women's rights? This whole nation is suffering from mass brain-disease! We went from getting women the right to vote to getting them the right to murder their children? My, how progressive we are! How did we go from questioning if it was fair to leave our children without a stay at home mother, to questioning if we should leave them the right to their first breath!? we think were so progressive and evolved, we are no better than a tribe of cannibals or a religion of honor killings when we kill the unborn for the sake of convenience and sexual irresponsibility.

We complain too, about the economy, but a Nation that is not productive, is not going to make profit. and the attitude in this country today is how can I get the most for the least!? how can I get something for nothing! I'll give you one quick example, in the town where I live, we pay taxes for garbage removal, and on top of that, we have to buy stickers from the village for every bag of garbage we throw out, but the garbage men, refuse to pick up, almost anything that you could think of to put out for big garbage day, if something is even the slightest bit heavy, to the point that they would have to put forth a reasonable amount of effort to lift it, they leave it lying there, because apparently the fact that they are getting paid by the hour is not enough compensation for these manly men to think they should have to break a sweat. Just another example of how the system falls apart when men with no character, class or morals are added to the mix. We are a nation full of millions of people who have no character, faith or discipline, and yet we EXPECT to prosper! Why? Do we just deserve to prosper because we want to? Everyone EXPECTS a hand-out from the government, they expect their savior Obama (pbuh) to take care of everything, because they deserve it for being good little pro-choice, pro-gay, community organizing foot-soldiers.  

Do I have a solution tonight? for the nation? I think before we think of a solution, we've got to wonder if anyone even realizes where we are right now. SO many people seem to be lulled into some spell or something. You now accept things that you would have never even entertained years ago! Those things which are good are being called evil, and those things  which are evil are considered good. How can an abortion doctor, killing our most easily victimized be hailed as a hero and a man or woman who says it is wrong is bad, and mean and crazy and an extremist? That is just one example of the totally backwards way that our society now thinks.

I mean, just imagine if all of those poor people whose lives were ended on September 11th, 2001, knew that all of these people who claim to be for peace and love and goodness-would be supporting a Mega-Mosque being built right in front of where the attack took place, almost like pouring salt in the wound, imagine the horror and disbelief, that not only were they to be killed, but forgotten and dishonoured. And yet people like me get called "Hateful"

I have never killed anyone. I have never bombed anyone or terroized anyone. I have never killed a baby or given my money to people who kill babies. I have never threatened anyone because of their religion or race or nationality. yet I am the extremist? The haters, the intolerant, the extremists and fanatics, re the terorrists, the terrorist enabler, and the abortionists. How do they get to do all of the crimes and then us well-meaning normal americans who havent been infected by this brain-disease get classified and categorized as some kind of freaks!

Popular American Culture is so divisive, counter-productive, self-loathing, shallow and self-destructive. We are on a sinking boat and I am looking for the lifeboats! If this were England I'd be headed to the New World, but since were in the New World, there's nowhere to run.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Spiritual Longing

So here I go again,...

I have not been winning the internet popularity contest lately, yet, last time I wrote I did get some encouraging feedback from a few people and so I know this is appreciated by someone.

I was walking home tonight, on this crisp, cool, fall night, and the sky was clear and the stars were shining so brightly. It only takes a moment of looking up at the sky to give me so renewed perspective. Just like the stars, the sun and the moon, there are some things that are constant, that have been and will be long after I am gone, and I pray to the One Who Created all of it by the power of His Word. 

As I look for guidance and health, my senses are constantly bombarded with the voices and opinions of mankind. Everyone seems to have an opinion, a standard, a doctrine, even an agenda or argument or paltform. And no matter how badly I want freedom, they want to enclose me in the issues they find so important. In my naivety, there have been times where I was blissfully ignorant of many people's insatiable desire to dominate me, even in my thinking. But my eyes are opened wide, and I see more and more,that I must be free. And of course, how can I be truly free, not only of physical oppression, or from intellectual bullying, PC censorship, and thought manipulation, but also free from my own proclivities towards pettiness, self-delusion, and self-importance. But how is it possible? Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. I am tired of all of the opinions, even my own. I am so weary of it all, and I long for a cleansing light, an eternal truth, an unwavering goodness, a true hero, a Final Authority, a Worthy Leader. When examining all of my desires to worship, adore, admire, look up to, sacrifice for, love...I realize, no one is worthy to receive that much trust and devotion, no one could ever but let me down! BUT there is One who is Worthy! He deserves everything I could ever hope to give times infinity. It would be hard to give all I had to an undeserving figure, but Jesus Christ is someone that I am not ashamed to adore, to admire, to worship and to love. And His truth; He is truth, is clear, and real and consistant, and all I need to do is be still and listen for His voice. I know His voice. I have His Spirit, the Spirit of Christ, living within me, and so-I am led in all truth. I recognize what is false and what is real. I just need to have the courage to acknowledge His voice only. This will put me in opposition to both the secular organized world AND organized religion in so many ways. 

So many people look to the conduct of the religious to decide the validity of God. But I myself even, am so pleased and thankful that God is not like me. I do not worship Christians, I worship Christ. Here and there, every so often, I have known Christians who really are good reflections of Christ, and that is great, but so many of us are just not that good of an example. I can't lie. I won't lie. I am NOT a good example of Christ. I WANT to be, and perhaps I will grow to that place, but right now, I am simply someone who admires Him and seeks Him and listens for His voice, I have not yet been coformed to his image, but I know the work has at least begun in me. And I have already been down the paths of religiosity and Churchianity. I do not put any hope in pious platitudes, I am just looking to God and the Bible for help and for perspective. And Oh, how I long to be free from the bigotry and prejudices and intellectual suicide of postmodern culture! God, help me! LORD, deliver me from all the voices and manipulations and messages that poison the mind of the modern man. Give me YOUR WISDOM from above! Take away the smoke and mirrors and tricks that have led us into this mess and lead me in the old paths, show me great and marvellous things that I know not! Amen.  

Friday, October 1, 2010

How I came to Know Christ Despite Christian School, or Lord, Save me From Your followers! bhahaha Serious thoughts here actually, would like you to read with an open mind

I have been thinking about some pretty heavy things lately. And I want to touch on some subjects, that, are pretty important, atleast to me. And it can be difficult, for one thing, to touch on all of them without losing track of where my thoughts are going, and also to tackle profound and deep truths without re-using cliches and slogans that have been heard so many times that they mean nothing to no one. That is the tragic, tragic thing about great truths, they're so significant and important that we say them over and over until people's hearts are desensitized and callassed to them. I am hoping that some of you will have the patience to bear with me, and see what I have to say, humor me ; )

I first began to be exposed to the truths about God in a Baptist family, attending a Baptist church (don't lose me here if that doesn't mean much to you) and we were Independent, Fundamental, King James, high-standard, strict Baptists too :) and No, I don't think there's anything wrong with that (this is kind of introductory so stick with me here also b aware I may be super honest and offend you if you've known me for many years).

In Church and at home, I was taught about this Infinite Creator, this All-Powerful Being, and I was told that He loved me, that He sent His Son to save me and to know me, and that His amazing Wisdom could be found in this Big Black Book. I was taught that Church, and family, and my Dad and Pastors were good things. They were gifts from God, BUT I was NEVER taught that those people were equal to God, I was never taught to look to them in order to have a personal knowledge of this God. I was taught that that was my personal stuff. And I made it personal. I prayed to God, alone, on my own. As well as in church and all of that. I LOVEd my church and I loved all the Baptist trappings, lol

But as time went on, I would see some people get dissillusioned with somebody or something in the church, and next thing I knew it, they were just kind of gone. I saw the problems they saw, I just didn't care like they did, because I never looked to a Church or a Pastor or another Brother as GOD. They were just people. people capable of being as clueless as I sometimes was. I follow Christ. It's personal. I am not part of some movement. I do not need to be part of some "Camp" or movement, denomination, circle, whatever. It's all well and good, but its kind of irrelevant. 

Fastforward some years, I went to a "Christian School" sorry if this offends anyone, but I'm an honest person. In the Christian school, some miserable, neurotic, obsessive compulsive women made it their mission in life (good intentions or not) to use the concept of God to try and make me feel like GARBAGE. They guilt-tripped, brow-beat, belittled, name-called, singled out, shamed and intimidated on a daily basis. They played favoritism, and double-standards and twisted Scriptures to accomplish whatever it was they were trying to accomplish. 

As a young man, this confused me, frustrated me and hurt me. It gave me a bit of a complex. But ya know what, over the years, I've seen that some of my fellow students that went there, have NOTHING to do with the Good Lord, and they seem to have a bad taste in their mouth from that school. (I'm only using this one example, I also had years of racism and mistreatment as a white Pastors son in an Indian Church where again I was treated like utter trash by the supposed family of God) 

But can I tell you something? Though I do indeed struggle at times, maybe with some anger or hurt, some bad memories, etc. I KNOW that MY GOD LOVES ME, and I have a personal relationship and walk with Him. And those grumpy old women, racist, nasty church folk, or any other bully or manipulator who tries to wield the Bible as their weapon of manipulation-does NOT and CANNOT speak for God. GOD is NOT a mean old bully who hates you! He wants to save the lost, and the lost who have been saved are HIS CHILDREN! HE is our FATHer! He LOVES us!God is not a nasty church-lady, God is not a sexually frustrated Nun, or a bully! Man-made religion is a pile of crap! How about them apples! 

JESUS went off against the Pharisees, the nasty, religious bullies! What I'm trying to say, is that 1. I learned awesome truths in a sincere Baptist Church that laid the foundation for my christian walk ALTHOUGH God in His Infinite Personality can and will do more than what we think He has to do within the walls of a Church, and 2. along with those who truly know God there are always stupid, satan-filled, or misguided bullies who do NOT represent God and we have to realize that they are NOT really Christian and that we can reject their guilt-ridden accusations and move on with our lives!

I will not be intimidated by anyone, to try and tell me that I don't have God because God has given me liberty that He has not given them, nor will I be so presumptuous as to laugh at or critisize those who take a higher and more careful standard than me!

You can know God, walk with God spread the Good Word-without being an up-tight, stuffed shirt, Church-lady. You do not have to be a yuppy for Jesus, you can just be yourself for Jesus and dont let anyone, the churched, or the unchurched, intimidate you away from coming to christ YOURSELF. He loves you. he died and rose again for you! He wants you to walk with Him! He wants you to please Him and it doesnt matter what the uptight believer, or the sinful nonbeliever, think about it. What matters is only what God thinks about it. And you dont need a priest or a seminary grad to tell you, you can just read the Good Book! peace.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

The Good Word

George Whitefield,one of the most important figures in the Great Awakening, was a remarkable man. What many do not know is that his sermons did a huge amount to unify the 13 colonies before the Revolutionary War. Without the Great Awakening, there would likely have been no Revolution. The Great Awakening was one of the only things that brought unity and a shared moral fiber to the colonies. I sometimes wonder why that truth is not brought up very much in the public schools? But then again, I have seen some public school teachers who won't even stand up and say the Pledge of Allegiance to the Flag, so no doubt, some have lost their perspective.

I continue to languish about and be vexed by the state of the Nation and the Church. We have lost so much on every level, not just as a Nation, but as families, local churches and communities.

Freedoms, institutions like marriage, and the Church, and the home, activities like prayer, Bible-reading, family-time, and helping one's neighbours-need to be cherished, praised, appreciated, and emphasized! We need to get perspective about what is important. But above all, what is most essential, is that in recognizing our fundamental need, our repentance, our spiritual destitution, we must return to our first love. the ONLY One who can help us and save us, the Saviour, Jesus Christ.

What many do not realize, is that our attitude towards Christ, is made perfectly clear, by our attitude towards the mind of Christ, the Sacred Scriptures, the Holy Bible. It is impossible for me to ever describe how profoundly important our attitude towards the Bible is. ALL Divine truth revealed to humanity comes from that Book! And ever since our churches have gone about to correct and revise it, to discard it and de-emphasize it, we have gone down a dark road.

The emphasis is so often on a teacher, or a song service, a tradition, a personality, a presentation, a translation.....but the emphasis should be on the Word of God, written about the Son of God, by the Spirit of God.

If only we would return to God and love Him and cherish His words!

The answer to every modern problem is answered in it. Whether it is moral problems, relatioships, emotions, physical needs, it is all there. We can know exactly what we need, and how to act and what to do, and most importantly how to know God-it is in the Holy Bible!

If we reverene God, we will reverence what He has said!

I am so tired and vexed and sometimes discouraged. I'm up sometimes and down others, but I can point you to a standard, to a message and to a person, that unlike me, is always the same, faithful, true, consistant and unfailing!

So many people look to religious folks for answers. But WE, myself included, are NOT the answer. i can however, point you to the One who IS the Saviour. The One Who never fails, who died on the cross, and shed His blood to pay for all of your sins and rose again to conquer death, He loves you. He wants to save you and He can, just call out to Him for salvation and forgiveness, trust in Him. He is salvation!

You can find fault in every Christian and every Church, but you cannot find fault in Christ or in His Word. Christ and His Word are the answer, not only for every unbeliever, but also for every one of us, backwards, backslidden, petty, inconsistant, insecure Christians.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

I Am The Religious Right And I'm Not Going Anywhere

Need to get something off my chest, this is gonna be some ranting, I just hope I can get this out the way it needs to get out!

I am listening to Johnny Cash to remind myself that there were once men in this country and to reprogram my mind that is being constantly bombarded by hyper-sensitive, pseudo-pious, politcally correct, platitudes! And PLEASE, can we please have a memmo here, the Messiah does not belong to the peaceniks and the pacifists and the hippies! Enough already! One more person comes at me with something shallow like "Who would Jesus Bomb" or "WWJD" and I think I am going to puke! You've already got Ghandi and the Dalilama, use them for your twisted, inconsistant, emotion based world-view but STOP trying to high-jack Jesus! I am so tired of it. Jesus drove crooks out of the temple with a whip! You got a problem with Him acting like a man, maybe you can talk to him about it some time, maybe next time you see Him on His white horse,  "spreading the love" so tired of shallow people trying to instruct me and intimidate and bully me into shutting up. I'm not gonna shut up! So get used to it! I'm not gonna be bullied by ignorant people talking bad behind my back. I'm going to continue to do and say what I think my Grandpa Buchler would do and say. I'd rather be shamed and looked down on by postmodern lemmings, than the man that fought and bled for his country and came home to raise his family.

The sad things is, even people who would be rather predisposed to agree with me, are caving to the pressure. They think being pro-life, pro-America, honoring the flag and thinking those who seek to kill us are the bad guys is somehow distasteful! We need to stop being on the run and stop being intimidated and influenced and be the ones having the influence! We are Not the distasteful ones! Killing innocent children is what is distasteful! Antisemitism is distasteful! Socialism and infringing on our personal rights is distasteful! Islam is distasteful! Being a patriotic American, waving the flag and reading the Bible, is NOt! Our priorities right now are entirely backwards! I feel like I am Captain VonTrapp in the Sound of Music, the poor fool was the only Austrian who seemed to think he shouldn't be a german and a nazi. His hate for Nazism was very unpopular in that atmosphere. I feel the same way. I know that Islamofaschism is almost exactly the same as the Third Reich, and that, like the Third Reich, what they want is conquest. But I am the bad one for speaking the truth!?!? You want to be mad at somebody, be mad at the terrorists and the corrupt leaders, don't be angry with me because I'm not playing the game and pretending these bloodthirsty, violent, vile, wild people are our friends! When they're intimidating you somewhere, you'll wish this country had listened to people like me. I have already been in situations in the city of Buffalo where Muslims try to intimidate and dominate. It is outrageous! And I for one, will not put up with it. If that makes me a bad person, then so be it. 

And part of the problem is that MEN in America seem to be eating too much soy or watching too much Lifetime television or something. A real man, has enough balance to be gentle when needed and tough when needed, but lots of 'men' today seem to be just plain old panzies! (that's the nice word for it folks) It is good to have the tact to be gracious in certain situations when needed, but it is bad if you can never call a spade a spade because you are simply too afraid! or because you're so weak-minded that you've been brainwashed by the propaganda from college and mainstream media! Quit watching the View and read a book! And they say the demographics is, that young American men do not preferr "Reality" tv show, but sadly, more and more are. Listen, if u watch it to laugh at ppl's stupidity, that's one thing, but if you are one of the people who think its actually "Real" No wonder you're so confused! Listen, when are we gonna realize the trash they broadcast on tv is a bunch of mind-numbing, propaganda and junk that will turn your mind to mush!?  Read a book! And maybe, just maybe, a real book, not some paperback, pop culture, best-selling, rag from Barnes And Nobles. 

I collect old books myself. Do I read newer stuff? Sure. But one thing I have noticed is that people who have no history to compare things to and give them some context, don't realize how out of touch this particular generation is! Believe it or not, there have been wise human beings on this planet for many generations, and all wisdom and knowledge did not come about in the 1990's. We think we need to be 'up to date' all the time, but when you're living in the age of Idiocracy, you may do well to look back every once in a while and see what the "Ancients" had to say. lol  

SO let me put it like this. I think John Wayne, Johnny Cash and General MacArthur are some examples of real men. I utterly despise all these guys with their hair in their faces like little girls, and their stupid skater sneakers, and their snub, condescending, shallow lingo that they think makes them sound educated and enlightened. I am not afraid or ashamed to come across as a little mean sometimes. I'm not intimidated and I don't care if you find me offensive, because as of right now it is still a fre country, and i am a free born person and i am not accountable or enslaved to the sensibilities and sensitivites of thin-skinned women and young men whose........testosterone levels haven't quite balanced out yet ; )

I'm not taking part in this generation's depart from reason and unconditional surrender to self-destruction and Islam. If you want to get down on your hands and knees and kiss the feet of the Muhammedan terrorists, after our forefathers sacrificed so much for our freedoms, that's your problem. But don't expect me to bow. You can have your white guilt, your Christian platitudes, your verses out of context, your feminism, your pseudo-intellectualism and your spirituality. But I'm going to die as the big-mouthed, un-enlightened, old-fashioned, Bible-thumping, right-wing, conservative, fundamentalist, closed-minded, flag-waving, Veteran-honoring, Pledge of Allegiance saying, school praying, Pro-Life, Church-going American, the liberal fanatics seem to be so afraid of. I AM the religious right and I'm not going anywhere!

Monday, September 20, 2010

My Toxic Tirade

The pendallum is constantly swinging from liberalism to legalism, and the battle continues between the evangelicals and the fundamentalist, the mega-churches, and the local churches, the irreverent and the pharisitical...and at times, I find it frustrating. And the reason, is sometimes hard to define. I find that I have been attacked from both sides! lol Some think badly of me because my 'standards' just aren't high enough for them and others condemn me because they think I am too intense, and too conservative and just need to loosen up. So you see, that in this little civil war, you can't win, whether you choose sides or not you will be shot at! But what is the real cause of all of this? I am here to tell you : )

Those that emphasize their standards, and lift them up above ALL else, have left their first love, and are worshipping their own opinions and rules, not God. But, those who HATE standards, are offended by standards, and avoid standards, are so irreverent and flippant about the Lord, that it is clear that what they love is their own pleasure, Not God. They turn the grace of God into lasciviousness. So, both of these nutty camps are off. Because God doesn't seem to be the priority. The lack of concern for pleasing God from the liberal and the lack of tenderness towards God and obsession with rules and lifting up opinions from the legalist, both take the emphasis off of the Lord and onto our desires and opinions.

We have left our first love.

If you follow the greatest commandment, which is to Love The Lord, not only will you be careful not to flippantly engage in activities that are not pleasing to Him, you will also not be so presumptuous as to say your opinions and personal convictions are the end all be all of knowing God or take it upon yourself to be the judge of other Christians who answer to the Lord. If liberals return to their fist love, they'll be more careful how they live and worship, if legalists start to love God, they'll look to Him instead of their own rules and outward appearance. Love God, and all the law will be fulfilled. Simple.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

What Does it Mean To Be Born Again?

EVeRYoNe has some kind of world view or ideology in their lives, that they have picked up somewhere, even if they haven't realized it.

There is a LOT of religion in the world, and not just in all the varieties of Churchism, Islam and Judaism, etc. It comes in any form, form Hinduism to Environmentalism. Man's need to worship and find meaning and structure is impossible to escape. and so, there is a vast, confusing amount of religiosity.

But If I Had the Chance, to broadcast a message to the WHOLE world, and to have a captive audience of every human being for a few minutes. There is only one message that I would wish to share. It wouldn't be a social message, I wouldn't ask them to vote for someone, or to join a Church or buy a book. If I had the whole world's attention, this is the one message that I would share with them:

according to the Bible, ALL men have sinned and come short of the glory of God. We are all separated from a good and holy God, from our Creator, by our sins. God is Holy and Perfect and Just and so He cannot tolerate sin and it must be judged. The PRICE that must be paid for sin, is beyond anything we can afford, it will cost us our souls. If we try to pay the debt, the payment of death will leave us in Hell forever.

But even though God is Holy and Just and Righteous, He is also loving, and compassionate, merciful and gracious and so. He has come down in the form of the Son, Jesus Christ, lived a perfect, sinless, flawless life, and then given His life and shed His blood on the cross. He bore the debt of sin for all mankind on Calvary, He was rejected by the Father. He took our place. And then He rose up from the dead in eternal victory.

ONLY the perfect act of God on Calvary and in the resurection can save us. We can trust wholly in Him. If you will repent, and turn from your own ways, sins and self-righteousness and just put your faith in Jesus, ask Him for forgiveness and He WILL forgive you. He will save you and make you His own if you simply, sincerely, ask Him. the Bible says "Whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved"

adhering towards any religion or teacher will not save your soul. Going to a Church will not get you to heaven. Confessing to a priest will not get you forgiven. Respecting the "Pope" will not make you a Christian. Praying and praying and praying will not make you Holy, Religion is just one big, hot mess! The Only hope you've got is in simply turning to Jesus. They don't call Him Saviour for nothing! He is the Only one who can save you. His blood is the only true payment for our sins, to wash them away forever! Taking communion or getting in the water of baptism will not make you closer to God. It is only Jesus. Jesus Himself said "I am the way, the truth and the life, no man cometh unto the Father but by me"

Do you want to know your Creator and know you are forgiven and going to heaven? Realize that you are a sinner and acknowledge that you deserve Hell, and no one deserves Heaven, and depend on His grace, put your trust in Jesus for forgiveness. Ask Him to take your life and forgive you and redeem you by His blood. He will! He will come into your heart and become your adopted heavenly Father because of what Jesus did on Calvary. ONLY Jesus can save, religion is nothing but the self-righteousness of man. True repentance is turning from our own idols to Jesus alone. He is the doorway. If you die trusting in your church or the pope, you'll be dissapointed. If you trust in Jesus, you'll be saved!

Jesus said, "Ye must be born again"

The Bible says "There is one God and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus" The 'priest' isn't a mediator, Mary isn't a mediator. The Church isn't a mediator, your pastor isnt a mediator, Only Jesus is our mediator! I hope everyone who reads this can turn from their own thoughts and just turn to Jesus and receiev the rest and peace that comes from knowing Christ as your personal Saviour and Lord!