Thursday, July 21, 2011


No one has so much as commented on my blogs in a while. Maybe they are too intense or problematic, or perhaps I just seem like a broken record. But I have some thoughts heavy on my heart tonight and I pray I can somehow ge tthe right words to share this VERY important issue.

Love love love, the Love of Christ. That has been my theme, that has been my broken record, that has been my message constantly, but no matter WHAT I say or how I say it, it NEVER does it justice, it never properly or completely explains it, it never goes into ALL that the Holy Bible has to say about it. 1, 2, 3 John talk CONSTANTLY about it, the whole Bible is about it. God is Love! YOu can never exhaust His eternal spring of love!

Please consider this-
PROBLEMS, we all got um, some more than others. I deal with people's problems ALL the time, in the ministry, people come with marriage problems, relationship problems, health problems, financial problems, religious problems, etc. emotional problems, mental problems....and the truth is that the LORD has and is the answer to All of our problems. He really is. And people know this, so they come to the Church, the Bible, the Pastor, the Christian Counsellor, etc-with their problems. But here is the thing. God is the solution and God IS love. I know so many people who KNOW the principles of God's Word, and they know the plan of salvation and the story of the Gospel. They know the truth. And I can sit there and share and share and teach and share some more, and preach and counsel and advise, forever. But giving KNOWLEDGE to someone, who really allready has that knowledge, does Nothing! They KNOW the answers, they know the principles, they know the doctrines, and it does them NO good! 

Knowing the truth of the Gospel, and the principles of the Proverbs, and the doctrines of God's Holy Word, is VERY good, But it can be in vain. The Devil has a lot of that same knowledge.

When a husband and wife are sitting down for counselling, and the Pastor reminds each one how Christ loved them so much and forgives them and how they should extend that same compassion and forgiveness and love to one another-much of the time, that statement has little effect on them. They KNOW that Christ loves and forgives, but they aren't interested in hearing how they need to love and sacrifice and forgive-they're interested in finding a way to make God and God's man make their spouse do what they want them to do to make them happy! People come to church to FIX things, marriages, families, depression, anxiety, finances, and on and on. Does God want to bless all of those areas? Yes! But there is NO Biblical secret, or super Pastor Counselling,  or Bible teaching principle that is going to FIX any of it, the ONLY way to find the blessings of Jesus, the only way to experience His power and miracles is by having HIM put the love of God in you! That is the only way! Jesus said he that will gain his life must lose it.

My heart is so torn up over this, because I can't find the words to explain it! People are looking for a secret, but the secret is right in front of you. You keep glossing ove rit and thinking it isn't important, you keep hearing it, but you're waiting for something 'deeper.' The answer to your relationship problems have ONE answer-the love of Christ. THAT. IS. IT. The love of Christ is the whole message of Christianity, it is the power of God! NO ONE can say what Jesus can say. No one can love like He does. No one can offer forgiveness like He does!

When you get the love of God in your heart, your marriage, family, friendships, spiritual walks-everything, WILL BE FUNDAMENTALLY CHANGED! That is the ONLY answer. Oh, I wish to God i didn't fall on deaf ears. It isn't just some saying, it isn't just good preaching, it isn't a bumper sticker, it is just the truth, if you dont have the love of Christ, love that gives expecting NOTHING in return, you will not have the blessings that Only cn be claimed by the Christian! You can't have a blessed marriage, a blessed family, a blessed Church, a miracle seeing ministry, you cannot have that unless you have the love of Christ! There is no short-cut. There is no deeper truth. It is that simple. The division and discontent that has been eating the brethren alive and causing church splits and family splits, etc-is simply that the love of many has waxed cold. People who are more concerned and in love with Jesus and others that themselve, would never have hurt feelings over petty things, argue cuz they can't get their way, gossip and backbite, and all of the things that happen when there is discord. The answer to all of it is simple. Love God and Love your neighbour, and you can only do that-when the Spirit of Christ comes in and gives you His love! YOUR love can run dry, your patience can be depleted. BUT GOD gives a love, when we get close to Him, the love of God is endless and infinite and will overflow out of our lives and do wonderful and great things!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I think the intensity of my blogs lately, or perhaps even the repetitiveness of the themes has scared some people away. But that is okay. I think in many ways, these blogs are for me. It helps to get thoughts in some kind of order. But also, if someone can get something, some perspective out of looking at the process I go thru, if it can help someone in some way, I think that would be great. Despite the tumultuous way that I seem to scrape thru life, I think I have learned a great deal of valuable things lately, and that I do have something to offer for those looking for Divine truth, despite my........anxiety and faults.

It is not Easy to grow, and I am growing. It is not always easy to learn new things, because sometimes you have to throw away old ideas, and change makes some ppl very nervous, especially religious people.

I've just been allowing myself to entertain some positive dreams, and been asking myself...could it be? Is it possible? and even the idea that MAYBE it could be, seems better than the alternative.

Remember when it talks about how the disciples didn't believe for joy? Basically they were like if Jesus really rose thats awesome, but it seems too good to be true...but truth is, He did rise! He was in control the whole time. Nobody murdered Him and TOOk His life, He gave it, and He just as easily took it back up again. That thought brings me such peace of mind. the circumstances were never out of God's control. He was never surprised or dissapointed, He had it all taken care of. If I could just remember that in the present circumstances. God is in control.

And who put dreams and hopes in my heart? God did. Who made me the way I am, with the desires I have? God. I've been thinking, if not one desire or joy or love or dream that I have ever had has been outside of the creative power of God-then all of the wonderful things that I can wish for or conceive of-have some kind of place in the reality that God has designed. God understand my wacky way of thinking, He gets it, cuz He made me that way. So maybe there is something there for me, something special from God. Maybe it's okay to embrace who I am. Maybe I don't have to try to be someone else? Cool.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Liberty to the Captives

Lately, I have had this sneaky suspicion, this hope against hope, that maybe, the authoritarian, duty-filled, guilt-driven, shame-ridden, intimidated, scared, beat-down, bullied, and hopeless lifestyle I once accepted as normal-is not normal. That it isn't my cross to bear. It isn't just the way it is. It isn't the will of God, it isn't just life-it is a lie. Now. Maybe I'm wrong. But if I am wrong, then life isn't so great. But if I am right-then life is and can be so much better than the bill of goods that I have been sold!!!

From rapists, communists, to faschists, to Devils, to Educators, BULLIES and manipulators, and the system, the machine, the framework and ideology of OPPRESSION is ALL the same. Whether it is the oppressive whispering of devils and evil spirits in the mind of their prey, or the propaganda of an organized politcal party spewed out thru the media (Communists regimes, etc). or the guilt and manipulation of the sexual abusers (Don't tell anyone or I'll kill your parents, or they won't love you anymore, Etc.) or the fear from religious leaders (Don't deny the Pope or you'll be burned at the stake, don't listen to the Protestants or you'll burn in Hell) NO MATTER the SOURCE, MANIPULATION is always trying to put you DOWN and make you feel discouraged and defeated. Ultimately, these attributed trace back to their father, the father of lies, Satan. And so abuse, from organized religion, to the Holocaust, to sexual deviants, to the Communist party-it all traces back to Satan. He is our enemy, that walks about like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour. BUT we are to resist him steadfastly in the faith. DO not be devoured!

GOD is greater-greater is He that is within me than he that is within the world.

Some may ask, wait? Why is he going on about communsts and sexual abuse, etc? Well, firstly, many many people are effected by such things, and we often forget that. But more directly we are ALL effected by SPIRITUAL abuse. In the same way that this evil world seeks to destroy and abuse people physically speaking.....the Devil uses the same tactics, lies, propaganda, repetitiveness, volume, media. louder and louder and louder-screaming his lies at us! The world offers us sin and lust that will destroy us and religion offers us shame and guilt and unrealistic expectations that will destroy us! And this is what we hear. But CHRIST. Christ neither offers us Sin or shame. He offers us HIS Love, and His love, and His presence, His Spirit-offers us True LIBERTY! Christ NEVER oppresses, abuses, or manipulates. Christ is our true Liberater! Spread the word, break the cycle of defeat and fear-God loves us. God delights in being with us! He wants us to spend time with Him! He doesn't count the minuted and keep track so you can earn a reward, the time spent together is good enough! it isn't religion, it isn't a duty, He is not the cosmic slave master in the sky, He is our Beloved Saviour and Friend.